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Okay So I know IM LOOOONNNGG overdue for the 25things about you thing on facebook oh well here goes...

1]Tash is just a tad bit crazy {{[SERIOUSLY]}}.. And if I get called crazy ill definitely show you .. kinda like Hitch when he was called asshole he showed it ... yea , that same affect..

2]C.R.E.A.M [DOLLA DOLLA BILL YALLS ..LMAO SCHMOLS].Gotta go after it , it will def. not come after you..

3]I absolutely {[{LOVE}]} musicians..

4]I would do WHATEVER for the very few people i deal with .

5]I hate girls with a passion but i <3>
6]Peter Piper is me and the Schmols theme song ..eki errrrrr [insider]

7]Blogging is my thing.

8]I ALWAYS carry a camera, my phone , and some sort of music.

9]I have absolutely no idea what my career choice will be..:(

10]Im infatuated with cutting my hair although i always complain later.

11]Terrified of big bodies of water &Bridges make my fanny tight...yikes!

12]Ghetto people , ignorance, nasty weaves , bad hygiene (bad teeth , greasy looking etc..) are a few of my pet peeves.

13]Tiara is my boyfriend when I dont wanna be bothered with guys .

14]I hate straws , bottle tops , dirty tables (crumbs and things of that nature) ,things that look like gunk , and empty or half empty water bottles ..idk why but yuck at all of those lol

15]Im going to retire @ 36 .. I dont know how but it WILL happen.

16]Really diggin piercing and tattoos ,,only 2 piercings and 2 tattoos so far..but more are definitely on the way ...:)..

17]I take myspace WAYYYYYYY to seriously.

18]Im extremely jealous ...like Bust Your Windows Jealous..{seriously}

19]I feel that blk people use wayyyy to many excuses.For instance, the white man put blks down , or im broke because the white man wont give me a job , because im blk i have strikes against me ,my president blk so i can do whatever now . Like wthell sooo ignorant . So many blk people have come up so yea if you use those excuses youre just an ass.(Not all blk ppl of course , and not saying that blacks are the only ones to do it but this is what im surrounded by and hear the most).:(

20]I have a ridiculous amount of insiders ... (do the dee dee , baby mike , oohhh nooo baby noo...) lol

21]I kinda hate when people say Tasha .. I know its my name but I feel like the person is mad or on serious mode when they say Tasha .. I prefer TASH.

22]fact:this b.s took me wayyyyy to long to think of.

23]Chanel is my alter ego.

24]Although I complain , and never do this . I actually like to cook . Culinary at Tech kinda turned me off to it but i like experimenting with foods and spices and stuff :/..

25]Im from another planet.. Planet SABEYYAA ... SHALOOMM (LMAO SCHMOLS)

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26]Im kinda scared of religion . I know youre probably like wthell but its coming to me slowly but surely .
27]I get taken advantage of alot .
28]I hold grudges .
29]I NEEDDDD ROOTBEER IN MY LIFE
30]Love when people talk shit , or tough ... it keeps me on top of mine.and it shows me youre not happy with yourself so u rather talk about something better (ME_ .. lol..
31]Scared of Love...
32]I hate when people say im skinny .. ughhhh
33]I think i might just die young because of respitory failure:(
34]Determined to go atleast 40 places before im 40 (out of country)thats all for now..

swag

When I think of swag I think its ya whole demeanor , ya personality , ya style , YOU. People walk around here like they have the dopest swag in the world but are either biting off of someone else or they only do it part time. Swag isnt somethin u have when u feel like it .I think ya swag sticks with u . Although there may be times it isnt as noticeable, its still there.For instance I call my "alter ego" Chanel , Chanel's swag is more noticeable than reg Tash lol . The bitchy ,diva, im the shit attitude is there its just not as fierce as it is when Im in Chanel mode .. get me??..

Im getting sooooo sick and tired of people faking . Claiming they have the hottest swag but they are lame ass bitch niggas (pardon my language)..One day your hard , next day your not , one day ima tough guy , next day im average .. Its not the swag thats all messed up , its your ass thats all messed up.Multiple personality disorder is what its called I think..

Guys out here trying soooo hard to impress their friends ...FOR WHAT??. Lying about how many girls they can get but in actuality you showing them how many u cant get because chances are that whole list of names you just told ya friends was full of shit, soooo u just showed how much of a lame u are.Guys trying so hard to be better than the next . NO PROBLEM with that at all but there is a way to do everything. If you going after something better than the next in the right way , and succedding at it then more power to u .. If you just talkin hella cash about what u can do , puttin yaself into debt and all this just to appear better then u are ultimately a fool . Ya swag is garb and u need to fix that a.s.a.p. ...No need for you to tell people business or just randomly say shit to feel cool . Why are u tryna impress people so much ? See , there's a difference in trying to impress and caring what people think about u .. When u TRY to impress 9 out of 10 times u may look like a jackass. When u care about what people think u may seem cautious or u are cautious to things u say or do .. get me?

Then theres also the other type of "swag" im noticing .. Sentimental Tough Guy Syndrome. There is no reason why people should feel like there swag has to be on macho man. WTFFF ..You have a heart , show it . Your beating on your wives for no reason , acting dumb with her and everyone else ..only to think about it later. Did u do it to be cool? To feel tough? .. I dont understand. Show your emotions , wthell .. No one is gonna judge u if u actually stand up for what u believe in or if u be real .. No need to put on this act . Like do u really wanna lose what u have because your a jackass on some days??Its not attractive ...

You can have the swag to have all eyes on you before you do anything (that is sooo dope to me). Ya presence can be enough but if you try to hard, act macho , or if its part time whats the point????... I didnt write this about any one in particular , and if i offended anyone I apologize .. buttttt if you got offended ,you might just wanna evaluate ya swag...

Lovers and Friends

Lovers and friends..maybe its just me but I can't seem to find that balance to deal with both. Meaning Things are great between ya significant other , things are great between your friends ,but when its time for you to balance things out things get corrupt on one of the sides.

In my case its the "lover" side..I have this friend who I guess is a love doctor , ricki lakes or somebody idk . I tend to listen to her or base me and Iv on her reactions. She's a great friend love her to death so maybe that's why her influence or opinions means so much but ehhhh it sucks. Me and Iv have been good for almost 2 months straight ,haven't had any major arguments and we know what it is. Feelings are def there. Stevie Wonder could see it and a paralyzed person could feel it . For real . We aren't all lovey dovey but its there nonetheless ..

I talk about things with the love doctor just hoping for an ear , someone to listen to me and I almost always get some type of negative feedback . Either a mmhhmm , a hmm or something . It can't ever be damn tash thas whussup or something ,and when it is its pretty much sarcastic in my opinion. Sucks . When im venting about a problem me and him have its always ultra negative on him . Kinda hurts to hear someone talk shit about someone u care about , and me bein a dummy starts to listen to it . Crazy cuz when she goes through something I strictly listen .She's real so she tells me what it is . Im real but I guess I block things cuz I know her reaction ont be pleasant . When she wants to give up im tellin her that the rough time will pass ,reevaluate things a lil more . The end of the day they good kissin and made up . Me and Iv are on some rough patchy shit. For instance superbowl sunday I was venting to her because she's a friend so as stated b4 just needed an ear .. She like he's all about games and blah blah blah ,f that, this and that.. Okay so im like ugh here we go again .. When me ,him , and her were around each other whole different ball game . She doesn't see what he doin wrong .. So I kinda broke down and we had a confrontation (well I was talkin by myself lol).. So we got in the house tension was heavy ,but of course her and hers were good .. Me and iv were ugh!!.

I mean I can't be the only one going through this problem because its in numerous songs where ppl are mentioning friends that talk shit like the dream in bust your windows remix. When he was referring to her friends talkin shit he concluded with saying "they just mad cuz I aint sleeping wit them" .. I kno that's not the case here but it still ties in with friends being in one ear messing up things with the s.o .)...

I hate to be writing this blog but its been bothering me for AWHILE and I feel like it has been putting a hinder on me and the iv for a lil while because I cant find the balance .don't wanna get mean and just straight up say . Stop buffin me ..lol but what do I do .???? Love her , crazy about him ...not tryna lose a friend because bros before hoes (jp) .. Not tryna lose iv .. I think I just have to let me and iv ride .. Know that me and him are good and leave it at tha. Chill , be there for him and not let ppl get to me to the point of him being frustrated because im going on and on about things and to not let it get to the point where im wondering if his feelings are true. .. And with her just not talk about it I guess.. ;(?? Until next time ;:)--Sent from my T-Mobile Sidekick®=

Gym

Okay so I went to the gym yesterday ,and I am not happy with myself as far as my body ...I thought I was 7 pounds heavier than I am now. Im not into the skinny look . I need some type of weight on me . I was 135 now im 128 and have no CLUE how I lost the weight , that sucks . I went to the gym and did better than expected so maybe those extra 7 pounds was putting a hinder on things but i doubt it . Like i would do one sit up and be like OOOOOO NOOOO .i was workin out my legs and stuff and I was good.. I used to be like 162 at one point in my life . I kinda liked my body back then hellla fanny lol..so for me to be this small it like ehh

Anyways my goals for the gym is to go atleast 3 times a week , and to gain 7 pounds even if the 7 pounds is in muscle. I dont want my shape to really change I like that my upper area is smaller than my bottom half .lol i wanna keep my fanny . Idk i just like how i looked at 135 . I felt like i was more healthier , looked better , idk idk but yea thats my goals.Im not trying to be brolic or anything like that .Lookin macho is not a good look for me .. anyways until next time :)......