Ive Been Tagggged. AND I TAG U ...(LITERALLY)

Yayyyy I GOT TAGGED .. I LOVE GETTING TAGGED ..
GorgeousGeek tagged me ... go check her out .

Things I look forward to:
1. as weird as this is but having a nice fun day at Dorney Park
2.Having my own car , and apt.
3. Some more tats i need to get before i start swimming ..def not good for the tat
4. Parasailing with my chicas , realllll soon i hope
5.Getting a pet , tryna get Lucky (this yorkie with swag lol) ..but if i cant then any small dog except a chihuahua theyre type annoying to me
6.lIGHT Traveling this yr ...V.A Beach ,N.C,S.C,G.A,F.L,.
7.My organization kicking off and goes the way I want .
8. Making a dope ass name for myself . Like i want to be internationally known for somethin good like my organization , and want it to be known in the music industry somehow ..not video chick known but yea u get me lol

8 Things I did yesterday:(Since its past 12..and the 25th ill answer accordingly lol)
1. Panicked cuz the starter went on my moms car while i was driving it so i was stuck on some lost ish ..
2.Spent a good portion of the day with Ivrito because he was the one that came to help me with the car... Yayyy
3.Prepared for The Coffee House on 5.1.09 (in paterson nj and wanna come hit me up).Made flyers , table thingys , bought coffee cups (cute lil to go ones) ,coffee creamers .. IM ON A ROLL.
4.Got mean mugged by this chick at Burger King. If looks could kill i would defff be on life support. We were orderin the food in the drivethru , im like iv she kno u he like nah ..my food was all smooshed and shit ..WTF lol IVs was perfect ..B.D
5.Had a personal tour of Paterson , we literally drove all around the damn city lol
6.Got PAID!!
7.Watched Finale of For the Love of Ray J, Caught up on Making the Band 4 , and started watching Coming to America (finishing it now)
8.Started contemplating on what i should do with my hair ..New Cut perhaps hmmm?

(((im gonna go against the "rules" and add #9.. me and my friend stephanie spoke ... i kno thats nothing but me and her havent really spoken on good terms since april 4th at around 8 pm lol.. so we started catchin up thurs night i misseedddd her.)))

8 Shows I watch:
1. 30 Minute Meals (or anything Racheal Ray lol)
2.For The Love of Ray J
3.I Love Money
4.College Hill
5.Making the Band
6.Hannah Montana
7.All of Us
8.Anything Reality lol .. im dying(not really) to go on one of those

8 Bloggers Tagged:
1.Miss T
2.Why So Serious
3.Glamour Me Up
4.Sentrell
5.GeneFord
6.Amb
7.whoever
8.wants to do it!

I will put links to the blogs later . toooo tired right now

twitter :)

okay so im gonna finally start using my twitter ..
follow me :)
twitter.com/_tash89_

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So as my earlier post showed I was going through something,this one wont be diff . I feel kinda dumb that I continue to be a little puppet. Steady putting my happiness aside to please . This isnt geared towards any one in specific .

Im starting to hate what we have . I love it for the most part but its always on your terms. You dont want it , it wont happen . Tash want it , it still wont happen lol. THAT STINKS. You're in my heart , Am I in yours? You're in my mind, Am I in yours? You keep wondering why im always crying , its because youre hurting my obviously .Thought things wouldve been better or changed by now , they get good at times only to be back at the same thing. You wont get it through ya head that hmmm maybe I should do good by her. Maybe she might just dismiss this for good.. Then again would u even give a fuck?Maybe not because in your eyes your cool , youre fly and ya swag is where it is ..?? WRONG. I cant be happy for you anymore , I need to be happy for me to . IDK what it is but once you get comfortable with things they go back to the old thing . We been at this to long to have this ruined now . Im starting to not care about anything anymore and i definitely dont want you to be apart of that . Then again , would you care?

LAST PLACE

Okay so i have been having this on going conflict with myself since as long as I can remember. Im sure I post about this numerous times ,but this is my blog and as things go on in my life im gonna continue talking about it . This somehow helps me . Pardon the language.. I am soo fucking annoyed with my surroundings. I dont fuckin get how I can continuously put everything , everybody , and again EVERYTHING before I put me ,out of the kindness out of my heart but nobody on the fucking face of Earth does the same for me. WTF IS IT?? Do people get that vibe that I dont need any type of love , is it just fuck Tasha all the time? Like damn this shit gets sad as hell when u helpin people all the damn time but as soon as Tasha need a laugh , a hug , a kiss , a damn piece of paper and nobody can deliever??

I hate that i continue to cry about this same situation. I hate that the people I love the most cant ever put me before anything . I hate that I will put my life out there for anybody im close with or care about , and nobody will do the same.

so much ass that everybody I know talk a good one ALL THE TIME about how they are there for me but .. wtf when??.. Im in tears about the same shit ever 2 weeks and I dont even know how to change the shit . Do I dismiss everyone out my life? Like what exactly do I do ? Do I stop caring about people and put on the whole fuck u attitude that they give to me?Like im stuck in a situation where i dont give a shit anymore about anything . IDK if this makes me weak but im letting this on going bullshit get in the way of ME.Seems like people get close to me just to leave .My drive ,motive , love for things , dedication , and focus is GONE . Idk how to get any of it back because I dont know how to delete this b.s out my life.

horoscope

Cancer
(6/21to 7/22)
Alias:The Crab

Tuesday 04-07-2009

You are finally gaining real momentum in one of your newest relationships --and things are going to take a dramatic turn today. At first.when things are not going smoothly,you might fear that this thing just isnt going to work out. You might want to just throw your hands up in the air. But embrace andy conflict that erupts, because working through it together is going to bring the two of you even closer together.Sometimes you have to argue before you can find any common ground.

OMG this is crazy.. ill explain why later

FN Walgreens

This post is loonngg overdue. I've been working at Walgreens for a little over 2.5 yrs now. I started the end of august of 06 and it truly sucks ass. I know I should be blessed because I have a job ,and I not complaining that Im working but oh emm gee that place reekss. Like its not the store itself or even customers at this point , its the dumbass people I work with. I have never met people that are lazy to that extent ..I know everyone has their off days but wtf everyday? Like they leave all the work for the people who work to do it ,.God forbid u tell them no , they catch little ass bitch fits . I just don't understand . Like did they wake up on the shit. Did they just decide hmm today im gonna do absolutely nothing at my job? Like I would love to know. Why have a job if u just gonna either sit there or walk around for 8 hrs. Im not saying im a perfect worker but sheeshh I do get MY job done

My job is on this team work shit. Fuckkk That . We are not getting team checks sooo why the hell should we practice team work. Its not a team is lil ol Tasha is doin everything now is it..Only a team when they need something done and they don't wanna do it??? I think not.

Now on to customers. I work in 2 stores. Both walgreens , but very different from each other .. One closes at10 , one is 24 hrs.. One is clean as hell , the other is a nasty ass mess. .. Im not saying the store I originaly work at is better but wthell its better. The customers steal crazy thing. Like there is no need to steal eye cream .They don't steal things I can see people needing like food , or baby stuff. They steal nail polish , condoms , douche, toothbrushes.like wthell. Parents bring their kids there and I guess walgreens is the baby sitter or somethin cuz the parents be no where in sight. Let their kids destruct the place. I just don't get it...

040309

Mkayy so im in what's supposed to be Psychology class but my teacher isn't here. Usually at like 15 minutes you can be out but me and a few others waited .(wellpp he just walked in).. So annoyed now at this point... anyways today the Iv has a show today so me and tamara are going .My older cousin is too supposedly ,but whatever ill blog again later I suppose.. DUECEZ.