AHHH

Yesterday, Halloween kinda sucked . I knew my original school girl plans got destroyed but I thought I was gonna chill with someone but ehhhh something came up :( ...At work i got major compliments . I didnt even look good at all in my opinion but no one ever saw me with any type of makeup that really shows or really like a girl or whatever ... anywhoot ill post a pic .. anywhoot I am ultra tired but im indirectly waiting for a phone call lol . Like im hopin i get the call, hopin i get the call, look at the phone every so often to make sure its still on type thing but w.e I think in approximately 3 minutes im goin to sleep.No nvm im goin to sleep now ..but wait ::::EVERYONE.. please be safe . Be ultra cautious these days way to many things are happening .. I know that was random but things are getting ridiculous . talk to you next time :) , Happy November 1st

why are people here???

Okay so I should be getting dressed for school but theres a few things on my mind lets see if i can put them here in enough time. Okay so all of yesterday I was wondering why people come into your lives ? Why some stay ? In my case , why do more go? When I was younger I would think that I was the reason people left ,or the reason I couldnt keep a boyfriend , or even why i couldnt keep friends . At this stage in life I feel like if u wanna discontinue yourself from me , your lost . Thinking about all the real people I have in my life makes me happy . I only have about 5 girl friends that I can talk to about anything . I dont really see them like that but at the end of the day I know if I need someone to talk to chances are theyre there . I have 2 guy friends that I can really be myself around, an older cousin , and pretty much my mom . So thats only about7 people that I can really get into depth with . I LOVE that these people are in my lives and I think I would rather have them there then 1000 people anyday.I had so many "friends" in highschool ,hmmmm i wonder where they are now . Which leads me to my next point . If all the "friends" I had in highschool were still there would I be who I am . Would their judgment on me affect who I am like it did back then ?, or because there arent so many people in my life I can now realize and claim my own identity instead of trying to copy theirs or please the one they wanted me to be.As far as me not being able to keep a b.f ...hmmmm i think its because I feel like I am a very strong individual and dont need anyone when in actuallity I do . The guys in the past were ultimately lame and I think I tried to hard to be who they wanted me to be . NEGATIVE CAPTAIN it doesnt work like that anymore.Alot of guys around my age tend to be ULTRA immature and want u to be there only when they feel in need . It doesnt matter if u need them ,it doesnt matter if u really need someone to talk to , doesnt matter if u need a hug , or even just to see the person ... they only want u to be there part time . i dont have time for part time relationships at all . If you want me its gonna be you want me now , you want me later .NOT .. i want u now but want u gone in a minute but i want u to come bak as soon as i call .. When people walk in your life and things seem to go to good to be true what exactly do u do ?Like you meet someone , you connect with the person , the person makes u laugh , you make the person laugh , cant go a few hours without speaking to the person and it kills you to realize u really have to , you miss the person when u realize u have to leave ,the person wants u to be there,and misses u also .... what do u do ? If that was to happen to me :)I think my mind would be boggled and I would be scared for some reason ..with all of that in mind lol . Going back on topic ...I realize the people that are in my lives have been there for quite some time (with the exception of one person )for instance my friend Tyson who ive known since I was 6 ... and my 2 friends from highschool that ive connected with and shared alot fo things with . Highschool wasnt long ago but they are still here .Anywhoo Im still wondering why people come into lives , and some leave without warning ..I haveeee to hurry up and get dressed now so until next time :) ...

halloween plans canceled ;(

Okay so about 12 hrs ago i was ultra excited about halloween ,now i could care less. I was thinking im trying to have my own place by next yr around this time , and a car by febraury i need to save money . If i can still have fun without going crazy with money im good . So me and my friend Steph are just gonna get dressed up at work and probably go see Saw V or something idk idk ..I bought these turquoise and gray fairy wings and she got yellow and orange ,my manager is gonna be a dark angel with black wings . So i think it might be a little cool to walk around Walgreens like that .Im gonna try to save atleast 100 dollars or so a check . if that means i have to minimize my phone plan , or make my own food at home for awhile then so be it . Im not trying to be like 25 at my mothers house.SO I GOTTA SAVE SAVE SAVE..until next time ..toodless:)

HALLOWEEN PLANS???

Okay , so halloween is tomorro and I still have no clue what im doing . I think this would probably be the first time since my trick or treating days that I actually want to go out and get dressed . At first I wanted to be the joker but sexy . Like wear a purple vest with a green tie and a lil purple skirt wiht heels and have his makeup buttt ehhh im not to excited for that anymore.So now i think im gonna be a good ol school girl .Unifrm skirt , wife beater and tie , heels knee highs , pigtails ,and some shorts that say somethin on the fanny part idk idk . I cant wait .If i ever got up to go get the skirt ill be okay I just dont feel like it though ;( ... but oh wells ..I hope everyone is safe tomorro because people act reckless on certain days for no reason . I guess they feel as though shootin up a place , or egging peoples car is having fun .. CORRECTION : ITS WHACK . Idk why i babbled about that but anywhoo until next time <3

Babbling away...

So its 2:39 when im starting to write this & I must say my day actually turned out better than i expected.Earlier when i was going on about hwy i dont understand guys and how they all of a sudden stop talking to you and all that was just a big scare i guess. I still dont understand guys but as far as what i was talking about earlier my s.o (significant other) was pretty much trying to show me what everyone was telling me about myself all along . I have a habit of od'n with text messages or even phone calls . Everyone tells me i need to relax and just have patience but i always had it in the mindset that there is no way a person could be that busy all the time or blah blah blah .. Well instead of arguing with me about it he decided to ignore me and act as if he wasnt talking to me .He then called me later and we talked it out . It was pretty much a tough love thing . I cant say that im happy he did that but i def cant say im mad he did it because i know it was needed . The only other way wouldve been was for us to argue and we really wouldnt have been talking anymore . SO YAYYYYY ...Anywho .. i combed out my hair and moisturized and i must say i likessss. Ive been using Elasta QP Mango Butter to smooth down my ends and moisturize the rest of my hair especially when i put it in a bun and my hair stays moisturized for a good little while .Im 7 weeks post and the new growth that I do have seems to be doing okay when i use this . I also like the Designers Touch Moisture Lock Finishing Gel but to me that is strictly for the edges.I dont use this one as often because if i can smooth the edges and moisturize at the same time , why not? wellll until next time :)

Hair Status

Okay so Im a member of K.I.S.S. (CHECK IT OUT: its great hair care and more there I LOVE THE SITE).. and im starting to once again take care of my hair . I established my hair journey on Sept 12 , i went to the salon 2 days after my relaxer and got the ends clipped which pretty much became a cut. She cute off way more than i wanted but almost a month and a half later i think my hair is back on track and quite healthy . Ive been deep conditioning and washing it often . I wish i could say the products but it varies almost every wash :-( (trying to find the right products so i can finally stick with one). I got my hair blowdried by a Dominican woman . I dont think I would constantly get that done because there has to be some type of damage doing that because the heat is on extreme and they pull your hair to get it straight to the max. I would probably do it once every 2 weeks after my 6 weeks post relaxer , and after a very deep , deep conditioner .You can check out pics on http://keepitsimplesista.ning.com/profile/Tash ... ill start posting pics on here once i get used to things... until next time :-) have a great day !

ahhhh!! my thoughts and confusion on relationships

Today is pretty much going down hill .I know this really isn't a way to start of a blog but hey its all about telling whats going on in your life, thoughts and things in that nature so0o0 there it goes lol . I am ultra CONFUSED right now about males. I don't want to say they are all messed up in the head but sheesshhh they are ultra hard to understand. Seems like every female i know is having some sort of problem with a guy.People being caught in between their feelings and someone else happiness. Friends having guys use them , and treat them like shit just for a few dollars .Guys wanting to be with you yet not wanting to do what it takes to keep you .Part Time Lovers . I woke up with a sense of not knowing . Wondering what went wrong or what happened within a day to make someone not look at you the same , or what went wrong within a day to have someone decide to just not talk to u . Maybe people come off strong ,not knowing that coming off strong is ultimately pushing the other person away .Maybe they feel like they have to come off strong to let you realize they really do care , or that they don't want you to think they are just there wasting space and time to go .Crazy because you put yourself in a shell then as soon as someone brings u out of that shell , all of a sudden things drastically change . When you find the person that is overall great ,brings out the best in you , would support you in whatever , wants to be embraced by you always , what exactly do you do to NOT come off strong?How do you limit yourself to showing your feeling ? Do you just lie to yourself to the point you make yourself believe you don't like them when in actuality you wouldn't want anything else but to be with that person ?HMMMMMM ... If anyone is reading this blog and wants to help me out it is greatly appreciated ...... my song of the moment .. IM YOURS -JASON MRAZ ... idk why but its kinda cheerin me up .. well until next time :-)