outfit for 710

On 7.10 as you all know im gonna to HOVs concert. Ivrito , Stephanie (1 out of the 2 of my best friends) ,and Ray (Ivs brother and Stephs boyfriend) will be there .

I wanted to look girly like a skirt that starts at my waist , a belt , wife beater , and cute accessories.

Now I think I wanna wear a skirt ,or some nice shorts that compliment my fanny , a wife beater ,"rugged accessories" like chains ,and a yankee fitted. Idk where the fitted came from but I think its a cute idea. I think thats what im gonna stick with.

...hellp someone lol

MIA

Okay so for a few days from the 25th until yesterday I have been M.I.A .. it kinda felt good not tweeting ,talking to certain people or really doin much of nothing. of course during this time , i started thinking and realized I need to get me on track .

In the beginning of 09 i had hella plans . Now the middle of 09 is here and all I wanna do is go places and explore. Thats not a problem but im spending hella money . I made less money last yr and saved up wayyy more . I need to get back on track to do that so the plan

Im gonna put atleast 100 back each check .
Im opening a new account this Friday so that will be my checking , and my savings will be with the bank I have now.
Im gonna write down everything I need and want .
Even calculate food expenses .

I cant go over the numbers I put for myself. This is what I did last yr and it worked soooooo yea starting that now..

Birthday Wishlist

THINGS TASHII F BABY WANTS LOL::
-A DOG-Preferrebly a yorkie but any little one will do .except a chihauhau (sp)
-Necklace from Tiffany .I want one of the ones that look like a key -the really simple one in large so its like 300.
-I want to spend the day or do something that night with the people I care about up here.
-I want to be able to see another yr.. f that .I wanna be able to see about 156789098765 yrs.
-I want a little shopping spree ..like tiny .3 shirts,2 jeans ,2 sandals,1 sneaker,2 skirts, 4 shorts ...lmao idk where i got the numbers from but yea..
-I want to get some long and obnoxious Angela Simmons weave. Its dope
-A 2 finger ring with my name on it
-someone to pay apart of my books ad tuition
-makeup from mac
-nice smelling perfume

and the biggest but i kno im not getting it
-mac..

if i only get 2 things from that list ill be a.ok .. mai things i want is to be able to see mmore yrs and to spend the day with the people i love..

but the dog and the necklace will be nice too lol

summer 09 update

Things have been goin quite okay . Of course some major speed bumps do pop u but for the most part everything is quite swell .
The summer is okay but i can tell now im gonna be ultra broke this summer.

Im going to HOVs concert on July 10th .
My birthday is July 17th .
July 18th or mybe even the 17th Im going to go to V.A
July 19th -S.C
July 28th-leave S.C to V.A
July 29th-leave V.A to N.J

August 1st -Americas Most Wanted tour ..

end of august going some where with stephanie

july 3-5th on one of those days I wanna watch fireworks with someone special
I wanna go to a beach in Jerz (its been years)
I wanna go to a batting cage
I want City Wide Marching Band to have atleast 4,000 by the end of the summer
I want to get about 2 tats and a piercing maybe
I want to enroll myself in a school i actually wanna be in .

I want alot lol.

im feenin

i am fn feening for dorney park .. i need to go already wtf...

my hair june

OKAY so ive been thinkin its only been 8 weeks since i relaxed my hair . I checked the calenar today and it was actually ten weeks on saturday . How cool seein that i think the longest i really wait is like 7 .Anyways I love how it feels , lets see how long i can go this time . i like how long the front is now although im sure itll look the same when i flat iron it ..:)

sj09.long post

GOT HELLA HIGH . SEEMED LIKE WE MISSED THE MEMO ON BRINGIN WEED BUT CLEARLY SHE DIDNT CUZ SHE ROLLIN IT RIGHT THERE.SAW THE NASTIEST OUTFITS AND BODIES .. CELLULITE SALLLLLLY
THE LADIES .STEPH , TASH, TIARA

SCHMOLS LOOKI HELLA DOPE.AS USUAL
I LOOK SO GRAY IN THIS PIC WTF. I HAD ON HEELS BUT THEY WERE KILLING ME . UGH

ME AND THE WENDYS GIRL .. TIARA LIKE WHATS HER NAME IM LIKE UHHH WENDY , DUH LOL

THE SHIT!!!! This is like the best . I paid a teeny bit over 100 but i saw about 26 ppl which is cool they would be ::

Asher Roth - GS Boyz -DJ Webstar and Crew

Ryan Leslie -Redman - Method Man

Mary J - Day 26 -Busta Rhymes and that guy

T-Pain -JAY Z -Drake

Serani-Movado -Elephant Man

Jim Jones-Juelz-Jadakiss

Soulja Boy -The Dream -Fabolous

Styles P-Pleasure P -Jeremi

Lil Kim -Ace Hood -DJ KHALID

Young Jeezy

a whole lot of ppl ...

best part was JAY Z . Like by him popping up I went NUTZ . Cried and all like thats when the concert go soooo surreal . like omg . Like Mary J was hella good to and I think her performance was the best but HOV was the best part . Hands down . I got so excited to see Drake . poppd up fast as hell but yea Jay Z made me forget it all . SIGHZ .

I DIDNT REALLY TAKE PICS OF THE ARTIST . SORRY ! ITS ALL EMBEDDED IN MY BRAIN .

That day was classic . Had so many haters , stopped traffic , ate the best strawberries in the world lol (compliments of whole foods) , got high from contact. picture this a whole stadium lightin up .lmaoo .. good times . Only bad thing i hated was jimmy and juelz performances .ugh they sucked major ass .Then mr.jones had the nerve to talk shit about HOV.Maybe its just me but if im only worth like 1million , i will not talk shit about someone worth 150 million .. how dumb . like hes talkin shit about hov when his rhymes suck . if he was smart he would buy him a handy dandy notebook and take some notes.. I <3>

more of my thoughts atm

Knock me down constantly when Im at my highest . stomp me even further down when im at my lowest. Those ppl are sorry ass lames , who will never make it any further than fuking with me , trying to bring me down . Silly Rabbit, Im movin regardless of how hard u try to cement me here. If all all dumb asses ws smart yall would move with me . While Im movin u plottin ya next move on shooti me down . While im down im plottin my next move on how ima get back up and go harder than b4.Why havent people learned yet? U can not fuck with a true go getter . U just cant . So no matter how hard all the dumbasses try to fuck up my life, youre gonna end up fucking up yours. Worthless scoundrels . Now bite on tha , bitch .

(this wasnt directed to anyone in specific,UNLESS u knock me down in any way . If you shun me , hate to see me happy this is for you too . If knocking me down is your hobby , wait ..no . If knocking me down is your career , by all means keep going . I may ge weak ,bu betta believe when I get over he emotional stages of shit I ammmmm stronger than b4 . Write that shit down and think about it.)

6:18

This may make no sense at all . woke up @ like 5:50 with this beatin on my brain so here goes::

So I seem to get physical lately ,nothing is incidintal ,no one understands what goes on in my brain . It was often just my emotions that had me saying stuff ,but now im doing things that may get me in trouble . Sucks when its just me , trying to let it be u . Seems like its us against the universe ,so my thoughts or hopes of "us" arent happening.I do the best that I can , to be the best u had . Not really working out though , I need someone who can be liberal without a fight .(take a stand for me , like i always do for u).I dont want her living there , seriously im shook . Cant believe ya fam would disespect me like that , i cant fight back . idk what to do , just only wanted it to be me and u . see im trying to hold on , at this point its not working though .

One would think LOVE would be enough .But damn , guess u wasnt expectin that word , probably hit u type hard.No need i steady denying the shit , why u think I was riding us so hard ... for Like?? LMFAO fuck outta here , yea right. Go hard for someone , pour your heart out ,give them you in every way . Guess thats not cuttin it . People hate to see us together , love when Im miserable though . 2 words to them :: FUCK YOU. PPL sayin I can do better , somethin in my brain is sayin i dont want better , I want Iv .

No , we havent had the strongest relationship. There were def many times I just felt the need to give up.You had me cryin , was actin dumb , started lyin . We both get tired of the shit so we wanted out . Shit got to tough , neither one of us need the stress. Somethin stronger than the dumb shit keepin us together. Now another obstacle? For real , a-fucking-nother one? Crazy cuz this time its not even either one of our faults.We cant win. Damn I just wanna be on chill mode , how it was when we first met . Laughin , chillin , goin hard together. It was young .We was each others but ppl def aint go THIS hard trying to kill "it". U let that get to u , ate your ego pills and then u get so ugh!.can I get a good amount of time with u b4 more b.s happend?? Shit let me cope wit the last dumb ish . Its undeniable that we got a thing for each other. So wtf is up with this shit . Feel my pain on this one . I dont like this situatuon so u need to change it for real . this shit is ridiculous.UGH fuck my life . seriously . cant lie and say im going to let her stop this . we r to strong for it . we are like the litte engine who could . dead ass . jus had to vent my feelings to u in a diff light , for once.

sooo heated

Okay , so tomorro was supposed to be a good ass chill day . wake up early , get tats , head to the concert .. sounds good right? yea , i thought so too .. comes to find out none of that shit happening.wtf is it that the only person i can count on is me . wtf .. shit is sooooo dumb.

hair again

okay so no twist out for me. hurt to much to part it. i just blowdried it a lil not really concentratin on the roots because it hurt like hell and put it in a lil pony ...but i bought johnsons no more tangles tonight and put it in the middle of my head to see how it works,because the new growth there is ridic . very thick and hard to manage at this point . the johnsons made all the tangles and whatever else that was going on in there just dissappear omg sooo bangin . So ill try to do the twist out on saturday for sunday .. If that doesnt wrk im screwed lol. Ill just have to go somewhere and have them do it although i was trying to save dough ..

anyways try the johnsons detangling spray .. thumbs up so far

echhkkk!! mac

Okay so I went to MAC to try out some foundation. I really wanted studio fix because alot of ppl use it and it seems okay .. So I go and the lady just seemed bleh . She seemed like she didnt wann be there, her life sucked ... etc.WTF i just want foundation . So she says she likes the way studio sculpt feels on her face and she was BEASTIN for me to try it . Im still like nah i wanna try studio fix .She tries the sculpt one anyways so im like wtf. She ask me what color i am , i specifically say im nc50 in the powder one .. she goes oh so youre that color in all .NEGATIVE. I knew that wasnt true so im like uhmm whatever .

Anywho needless to say after she put the ashy shit on my face it was dark as hell (not that thats a problem but when youre tryna match makeup and its like 4 shades darker that what u are it is a prob).. Then Im like can you put the studio fix shes like "ugh , sure" she gets the nc50 and it looked like chocolate compared to me. Like for real if i was to get it and put it on my face ill look like a milk chocolate hershey bar. Better yet a symphony cuz i do have minor acne..So yea that looked horrible to ..

WTF im upset .

Like her customer service was yucckkkkkk!!!!!!!Now Ima just go to a mac store in nyc in friday and get something there .OOOOO and the side with the sculpt on it its all broken out :(

hair update

My hair right now is HOT ASS MESS ..No other way to explain it,im sorry.

I remember one of those times I said I was gonna try not to get a relaxer.. EHHH I LIED. Im now 7.5 weeks post Ill be 8 weeks post n Saturday . Im not planing on getting relxer soon but OH EMMMM GEEEE my hair looks and feels horrible.I do know I wanna do twist outs for good 2 weeks and hopefully it doesnt look crazy on me since my hair is in a lil bob ..not to little (w.e yall saw the pics) ..

I gonna try to do a twist out tonight ,wear it out tomorro then that wednesday pin it somehow then the next day a mohawk .. friday im gonna twist it out again then saturday wear it out nd on sunday put it in a mohawk for SUMMMERRR JAM .(((these are just the plans they might not come through cuz God only knows how lazy I can get))).

I am searching every hair blog ever to find some reallly good products to stop my hair from being so dry . So I need a good moisturizer ,deep conditioner,leave in and detangler. ...Welp ill go to the store a lil later and be here for about 4 hrs tryn decide because this hair needs help big time...