MY SCHMOLS

::heyyy schmike your experiencing this right now lol::

I saw my schmolaaa ,my bestfriend Tiara today ... I LOVE HER ... here she goes:
We have hella fun together . She met my Iv ,which was pretty cool .We was at Toys R Us and havin hella fun like we was at the mall . We could pretty much go anywhere and have fun . We was saying "It dont even Matter dough!" ALLLLL night and that was cool it was still funny . Ive known her since the second grade and we even got tatted together ..Shes my P.I.C *(partner in crime)* although we harmless as hell ... I cant wait till she comes back for christmas break. We were in my job parkin lot waitin to pick up some friends and we was jammin to some oldskool buggin out . I can be me around her and know she isnt phony . Afterwards we went to 2 parties with my other friend Stephy :) (I LOVE HER TOO ) ...Here are some pics...I cut your head off by accident sorry schmols

sorry its sideways , forgot to rotate them :(
My sexy Schmols

STEPHY Schmols and Brit.

my exact feeling at this exact moment

Well its early Sunday morning , and Im on my way to church , yes church . It seems like i always get nervous when i go to church , doesnt matter what church i go to. Anywho im about to be overwhelmed with emotions and feelings any minute now . Lately Ive been extra emotional . Right now I feel good about myself ,but at the same time i feel sad and discouraged. I feel like something is sooooo close to me yet so far .My mom is all the way in S.C so maybe thats it ,but then again maybe its not. I feel like I need to better myself a.s.a.p . I need a change in my life so I can be where I want to be .
Ive been at my job for 2 yrs and im not really getting anything from it except a headache while im there. I find myself as this other person when Im there.I have an attitude always ,im a bitch when im there, im rude , not helpful at all when Im there. Some people may say Im a bitch when Im not there but usually its when im being provoked. I like to think that im very helpful to people . Im always making sure everyone is okay , and if they need something (or even want ) I try my best to provide. Im not usually rude , if me being on my sklx is rude, then maybe I am but I dont think so .Why the sudden change when i get to work ? Some of the customers dont mean any harm by asking a question so why the hell am i so annoyed? .. AHHH! I need to figuire this out .
I also feel like a part of me needs to breakk loose. I feel like I have my alter ego (Chanel) is begging me to let her out ,but I think Im scared of peoples reactions . Chanel is the cool ,not shy , sexy ,never really stressing version of me . I dont take much b.s but she doesnt take any at all . ::SIGHS:: she needs to release herself .
Im on the verge of crying right now and I dont know why ... this ish sucks lol .... UNTIL NEXT TIME :)

Christmas Wishlist..

Okay soooo i decided to put my ultra short Christmas list on here , here goes. ............

IpodTouch
xoxo necklace with my name in gold or gold and silver

thats pretty much it lol .. baby list but yea thats what i want ...:)

to u

I dont know how else to say this or i dont even think i can say this to u directly which is why im saying it where my thoughts go , because as of now thats all they are ;thoughts.

Apologizing takes alot for me to do ,but at this point it needs to be done . I AM TRULY SORRY .Sorry for being extra , sorry for pushing subjects always , sorry for trying , im just overall sorry . I rarely show my feelings to anyone and the few people who i do show my feelings to , know that at times they can be limited.I thought i was doing something as harmless as letting you know , or showing you how I felt ,but clearly that turned into something else. I didnt mean to be extra with you , I didnt mean to push the "official" thing . I kinda wanted u to know that I really do have feelings for you , and I wanted you for my own . According to you ,we are exactly what I wanted except there is no title , and as of last night I accepted that until you decided to take things further . I dont know why I went crazy when u didnt pick up the phone , or text me back when you knew we had a lil plans . It sucks when you do this but i was getting over it .Im really not used to that but ehh i was coping.The average person probably wouldve left it alone , and moved on but its kinda hard to move on from something you actually care about .Im not the average girl , im sure u know that . At times I secretly think , you wish I was though, so things could possibly be "normal" . I dont know where this impatient stuff came from all of a sudden,but its fn up my way of life for real . I was always impatient but the impatient ive been on since around August or September is on some other stuff. I get to anxious or anticipated for things to happen and when they dont I guess I get paranoid in a sense.I dont know how else to say this . Not to compare you with anyone else but I really believe your 717,101,789 (get it?) times better than the past lames .If the only con I have with you is not being prompt with the phone , or youre not showing emotions then why couldnt i just let that ride?. Eventually that would change and you would show them right?UGH i feel so dumb right now .. Maybe im over exaggerating , and like I said earlier I didnt realize what I was about to lose until now because it seems like your really gone . :( I want something to happen , at this point it may take way longer than I want but ill wait and know that the wait is for the best. I mean , that is if u still wanna pursue with it ?Hopefully we talk later , and im still your ducky ..

tash*

Pics From Mini Makeover...

Okay so I just realized I dont really have any good pics of my "mini-makeover".. and the rain wrecked how nice and silky it was but heyy ,here they go...


yo quiero un beso :(

messy side shot and my huge head lol

still waitin at the gas station...

I like the hair but it kinda looks like abob from the front...

hope u liked the pics...until next time:)

IMPATIENT...

Why the heck am I so impatient? I know they said good things come to those who wait but wthell I think I've waited long enough for good to come in my life . Not trying to be over exaggeratin but alot of things seem to go wrong in my life ..Or I want things soo0000oooo bad and I have to always , always , always wait for it . Seems like I never have the opportunity to have things givin to me smoothly or without a hassle . I don't mind working for mines or doing what I have to do to get what I want or need but Dayyuumm this is ridiculous .The wait gets painful .I don't mind waiting but on certain things like waiting for my family to finally act like that have sense gets tiring..idk where is this going lol but patience is definitely something I don't have ... In conclusion I want things and they seem to never come .. I want something bad as hell right now and im trying to patiently wait lol .. Time doesn't seem to move how I want it to .. EVER lolIf anyone has suggestions on what I should do LET ME KNOW PLEASE :)--Sent from my T-Mobile Sidekick®=

Who Am I?

Who am I ? Lately I've been trying to figure out just who I am . I know that my name is Tasha but other than that who am I ? I know that I have major flaws . I can be a bitch at any given time . Im impatient , when I dont get what I want I get overly dramatic or depressed.I hate being lied to . If u lie to me that's that . Don't tell me one thing then act another way . On the days I don't feel beautiful to the world , I shut myself out . When I don't get affection or any type of love from people I care about, I don't feel wanted. I speak my mind as much as I can . I love to get lost in music . I feel like Im going down a long road and along this road , road signs come up telling me more and more about myself every so often .Everyday it seems like I learn more about me but I still don't know who Tash is .. When people say im a certain way or im different from anyone else I always ask for them to explain how so , because I wanna see what they see when they look at me .Things that I use to say no, I wouldn't do , or I would never feel this way are now makin me a liar. I promised myself I wouldn't let anyone in and everytime I speak to the person im doing just that . Its not a bad thing but im learning that Im not as tough or I can't hold back my feelings as much as I thought . I used to think I was this big rock . A lifeless object that just sits there . Doesn't have emotion and only way to see the inside is if u really crack me open . That's sad . This sucks and I hate when I feel like this .. I don't think anyone truly knows who they are but damn atleast they have an idea lol ..--Sent from my T-Mobile Sidekick®=

MINI MAKEOVER

okay so i was getting bored with my hair from before .. im trying to grow it out but in the process ima make it snazzy lol .. so i cut bangs .not regular straight across bangs .Its like, selisha from antm and keri hilsonesq but not really ..

so here are some b4 and after pics .. they arent the best pics but hey ...

before...

my lashes look hawt ....its only a side shot for now but hey its the only one i got right now

THINGS I LOVE....

So i wrote a blog about things I hate , now its time to the more positive side of things.. They arent listed in any particular order...

I loveee ice lol . I know that's weird but i love to eat ice. I'm anemic and its one of my cravings. I think that's one of the more normal cravings because some people crave clay , dirt , or paper. So ill stick to my ice. Idk why but i love ice from quick check .. I've been to like 5 .. In v.a ,pa.i think in delaware ,jersey of course and they all have this nice textured ice . Its not on brick status , its just right .. YUUMMMMMM!! lol



i love my friends...I don't tell them this often but I LOVE YOU GUYS . Its not everyday that I see or talk to them but at the end of the day i kno they're there for me like I'm there for them . I don't have many friends , and actually i like it like this . The ones I do have I cherish them and wouldn't trade them for the world. With all of my friends we've been through so much and there would be no love loss. AWW im getting teary eyed. <3 class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_15">yall.

I love Love.The idea of me falling madly in love is soooooo hot to me . I think theres someone for everyone . When I see people walking , holding hands , whispering in each other ears , gazing into each other eyes , or simply at a bookstore chillin there but u can still feel their connection , i get soooo happy for them . When I see Dawn and Q or Barack and Michelle Obama I go bizurk . The love these people seem to have is something I am dying to get . Knowing that at the end of the day i have my other half is there , and would do whatever for me is what I need and long for.

I love learning . Whether its learning how to do a proper manicure , how to put on eyeliner , how to say all the presidents in order in about a minute with no hesitations is something i need lol . i need to learn something. Everyday is another oppurtunity to learn something . Learning can be anything . Learning about how lame guys can be sometimes still qualifies at learning because its something you really didnt kno before.

I love magazines. I have some dated back from 2004 i think . I have no idea why i keep them but I love them . I go back to them sometimes in reference to things. I have magazines I bought and havent even looked at yet. Idk i need them in my life. They range from Jazz Magazine , to Cosmopolitan to Seventeen . 3 completely diff types of magazines. Idk like i said before Im in love with them .

I love youtube. Idk why but its so interesting to me . I recently saw this guy get smacked harder than ever .. LMAO .. type in super bitch slap .. its hilarious . This type of thing entertain me . Its also very informative . I learned how to flat iron my hair and make it flow , learned some things about history , and the election .I also learned how to do alot of the single ladies dance lol . Youtube is very informative to me so this goes with me loving to learn lol..

I love Laser Tag . I almost passed out the first time because I had on hella clothes and I didnt realize we would be running around for a good 15 minutes lol .. Other than that experience I love that game . Im down to play that whenever .. BRING IT ON lol..

I love MUSIC. I cant stress this enough . I like to analyze it ,listen to it , used to write it back in the day when i wanted to be a rapper back in 7th grade lmao but im deaddddd serious.I dont know how to play any type of instrument , and i barely kno how to tell some apart ,but i really believe i have a passion for music. I dont limit myself to one or two types . I can listen to pretty much anything and find something I love about it . SIGHS it may be a career choice hmmm . Im apart of a band I play the TRIANGLE .. (insider lol) ..Ohhhh and im thinking baout learning an instrument . It might just be the drums , so i can compete with someone lol .. :) innocent smile

I love NYC AND S.C . The lights and constant action is sooooooo HOT . There isnt a day when i dont want to go to nyc . I love S.C because thats like home to me . Pretty much all my family is there . Ive been going there almost once a yr since i was 2 weeks old . Its the exact opposite of NYC but who cares lol . Lately ive realized im to fast paced for it but its definately a place to go to take your mind off of things. <br.
I love Cleatis . Enough said.

I think thats it for now , imhaving mental constipation and nothing else is coming to me , so until next time :)

:)

Yayyy !!okay so I got a 5 out of 6 on my writing midterm .YAYYY I thought I was absolutely positively failing the class.. Yayyyyyyyyyy .. I feel bad for my teacher though . She is a good person but idk about her teaching style ,and people are ripping her apart in the student review of the teacher :(..

So its 11.10.08 .. Its almost 2 months until my moms bday and she's turning 50 .. The big 50 .over the hill status . I wanna throw her a little birthday party .She bowls so I guess a bowling party , out to eat , strip club , yes strip club lol , or try to have her a lil party at a old ppl club lol and I pay for the drinks .. 2 drinks per person at about 7 dollars for 25 people is about 350.00 sheeesshh oh wells is for my madre so hey why not ,its worth it.. If not a hall which is about 400.00 and I have family bring her food ,and have my cousin (or whatever he considers himself to me ) do the djn .. Idk idk I gotta make it hot . If not that a lil get together at my aunts house , its kinda small for 3o to 40 people so idk about that either.I want it to be live , like live in a sense of jumping. Im gonna invite a few of my friends so I don't want us to fall asleep . Hell , I don't want anyone to fall asleep lol . She likes music , and food lol .. So, IF ANYONE HAS IDEAS,PLEASEEEE LET ME KNOW. I want it to be something she remembers.. I love my Mom . She pretty much made me who I am , tough love and all that harsh stuff .She's quite strong , im quite strong so hey .Anywho Im not gonna stress about this but I am quite anxious ..--Sent from my T-Mobile Sidekick®=
IF everything seem jumbled , it is lol , I was writing this in class on my phone .Bare with me .. until next time :))))

LAME-O's

Let me begin by saying Happy Sunday!.. I had a good day yesterday even though it was kinda sad majority of the day but ill get into that later.

Okay ... I am SOOOOOO sick and tired of these lame ass guys coming into my girls lives.Im definately not saying everything on my end is great but sheesh . Im not better than anyone , let me repeat Im not better than anyone ,but i think my tolerance level is almost non existent. I put up with alot . Ive been through rough things so to me if I can deal with it for awhile , I will . Once you reach the point of me not tolerating b.s anymore than thats it . Anywho , Guys ...I know there are GREAT guys out there. I know that there are guys that arent only about sex.I said only about sex because women got needs too lol..

I know that some guys can be snake-ish but the things im hearing are fn ridiculous.If you need something , or want something bad WORK FOR IT . There is no reason people have to steal money , or anything else. I mean stealing is bad anyway you look at it but I think i would be more lenient on people who have to steal food ,especially if its for a baby . I know some jobs dont pay enough for people to get by in life, and even more people cant really afford to better there education for more oppurtunities with or without financial aid,but still you do what you have to do . There are people out there working 3 jobs just to be able to make sure their child(ren) are eating , there lights are on or whatever else they may need. If these people can get up and do what they need to do , I DONT WANT TO HEAR EXCUSES.

If you are a grown ass man (or female) do what you have to do LEGALLY to get what you want/need. You bring yourself to manipulate people , someone who you know is very giving , and pretty much just needs love ,affection and attention, to take some shit you could easily get if ya ass wasnt to lazy to work for ya shit .You are pathetic to the world . Go hide yourself in a corner and play with the things you stole for the rest of your life because trust and believe you will not amount to anything in the long run . Let your girl know that youre not who you try to make yourself seem. You walk around like you are Captain Morgan with your leg propped up chillin and shit all the time . Its a shame how you let someone in your life , they lie to you steal from you , and you give them another chance because things sound better than they did last time .I know they say fooled me once shame on you , fooled me twice shame on me ,but sometimes you cant help how you feel .Dont feel like your dumb (you kno who you are) , at the same time PLEASE MAKE SMARTER DECISIONS . I love you to death and i would do whatever for you ,you will get over this in due time . Im not religious (although i felt something yesterday ,but will talk about that in another post) ,but PRAY about this . Allow GOD to come into your life . As my friend said , once you let God take over , everything else will fall into place.

Excuse my language in this one .... UNTIL NEXT TIME:)

i DONT understand

I like to think of myself as a nice, cute, intelligent , outspoken,MISUNDERSTOOD young lady .I can see how im nice , cute, outspoken , and MISUNDERSTOOD but i definately dont understand my intelligence level sometimes. I know alot of things , experienced alot of things , been through rough times ,but I am still failing to understand why things happen in my life. It seems like everything goes smooth with me . Couldnt be better , skin glowing , im gleaming and all that good stuff , then out the blue everythign gets shut down. I know I may not be the best girl out there or whatever the case may be ,but damn is it really that serious for things to get shut down . I am not perfect. I make HELLA mistakes. I try not to regret ANYTHING , but I learned to learn from it. I dont understand relationships at all ;with friends , family ,and especially significant others.
As far as relationships with an s.o i dont get them . One minute your smiling ,kissing , hugging , and not wanting to part from the person . The next minute all of that is gone. IT SUCKS . When you to care about someone , and all of a sudden feelings are changed is truly mind-boggling .I love to feel wanted , who doesnt . This feeling Im going through now is the ultimate HELL . I hate not knowing . I hate that i dont know what if it never happens?, what if thats really it?, or what now?I also never understood since I really started to pay attention to boys in 4th grade with my lil crush , Gary, how misleading they are lol. Its like a game almost .For instance heres the rules:1)... Get as close to her as you possibly can , let her explore your world..2)..As soon as she gets close to you RUN FOR YOUR LIFE!!!! Im sure it isnt like that but hey it made me chuckle . Anyways I REALLY hope I didnt lose my I , I really hope this is a false alarm .Right now I just wanna interact with him SOMEHOW. Phone , text , air signal ,kickin rocks in his driveway lol , idk somehow .Im gonna listen to Repotsirc and not stress it but at the same time its like how can you not stress something you feel for ???!!!?I believe Repotsirc is right. Im gonna sress myself then at the end of the day have a major headache about something I cant really change at the moment , so why stress it .. ::NOTE TO SELF ::DONT STRESS IT::Anyways until next time :)

Purity Test

I got the idea from Gorgeous Geek , so i decided to do it because Im a tad bit bored. According to this it says You answered "yes" to 63 of 100 questions, making you 37.0% sexually pure (63.0% sexually corrupt); that is, you are 37.0% pure in the sex domain. .OHHHHH NOOO lol . I need to go pray or something . http://www.armory.com./tests/100.html Thats the link if you wanna do it here's the link .. :)

Finding my "Q"

As the majority knows , I absolutely LOVE DAWN AND Q. I love how they look at each other . I love how they talk to each other . I love how they soothe and comfort each other after stressful days . Things probably aren't what they seem ,but I truly believe what they have is real ..Ive been through alot of b.s with males but you ultimately kno when the person you have is right for u. He isnt about b.s , he isnt making excuses on why he cant see you for a month or two straight . If you need him he has a bigger reason of why he cant help you . Thats exactly what you DONT WANT.Theres a quote that says "In your life nobody has ever abused you more than you have abused yourself... and the limit of your self abuse is exactly the limit of abuse that you will tolerate from someone else". I believe this to death .If you let someone abuse you in any type of way you are basically abusing yourself. You may not believe it at the moment but when you find someone to swoon you away with a kiss , or with how theyre treating you in a little bit of time , that's when you realize the last guy treated you like shit .You need to appreciate yourself to realize you need to be appreciated...Now on to me and finding my Q. I yearn for someone to make me feel complete. Crave his touch , kiss , voice , smell , everything .Makes me feel "refreshed", or lifted when I'm talkin to him . When the person is away from you your not necessarily sad but things just aren't right .I want to feel and know that I'm wanted. I want someone to look at my flaws and think they're hot . Someone to tell me I'm beautiful , even when I feel like I'm at my worse. Someone to share their self with me. Connect with on another level . Have that special vibe that proves it is possible. Someone not like the rest of the lames. Brings me into his space with open arms. Wants me around as much as I want him around . Teaches me things indirectly. Idk just makes you happy with a thought .... SIGHHHHHH::BIGGEST SMILE ON MY FACE RIGHT NOW LOL:: ... SOOOOOO this just leaves me to the question Did I find my Q in I?

OBAMA!!!!!

Yayyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!OBAMA WON!!!! .... I was sleeping when they announced it and I found out from Ivtastic . I didnt wanna believe it or maybe I was to shocked . IDK .Im ultra happy YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY !!!!! I feel some type of way about this . I feel like so many things can get done now . Im not gonna say because he won I have hope with my future ,but I do feel like I have something to look forward to .Many people got killed for even thinking something like this could happen . People got killed to try to place a vote ,and when they could vote they had to go through absurd test that no one could pass. For instance , who the hell can pass a how many bubbles in a soup bar test ?, or how many gumdrops in a jar test ? WHATEVER ! Im not gonna say that only African Americans came up , but I think America came a long way in general . This just shows that with time ,determination , and extra hard work THINGS WILL GET DONE . This is encouraging . I know this blog is all over the place but my thoughts are scattered , so excited. ... When I can get all my thoughts together Ill probably write a better blog but until then TOODLES.

VOTED!!

Yayyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!! i voted . I asked my friend Steph to come with me because I didnt wanan go alone .I was nervous as heck . For some reason I thought there were levers there and all that other stuff . It was ULTRA SIMPLE . I was a lil shakey though. I felt good and very anticipated. Im happy I can be apart of this .. When I got up there i wasnt in the book i was like OHHHHH NOOOO!!!! ,but it was just a scare because the lady directed me to the wrong table .But yea I VOTED !!So cited.

ELECTION DAY

YAYYYY!!! The time we've all been waiting for is here .This is my first time voting and I must say , I AM ULTRA HAPPY YET HELLA NERVOUS ABOUT THIS . Im not going to say who you should vote for because you vote for who you believe is right but PLEASSEEE DON'T FORGET TO VOTE. Please dont be one of those people that complain about the country when you pretty much do nothing to contribute to it . EVERY vote counts. Dont think oh it doesnt count , oh my stomach hurts , oh I have gas , or let anything else that simple ,stop yoy from being apart of this very historical election. Please dont jump on the bandwagon either. Read up on them , youtube the debates and other speeches and go from there. Dont jump on the bandwagan and go well I dont wanna be apart of the losing team and pick someone else because you think everyone is voting for someone other than what you originally choose.sooo yea PLLEEASE DONT FORGET TO VOTE.....gotta try to review over this midterm ..:) toodles

Church

I went to church today . I haven't been to church since the time I went to S.C in the summer, and the time before that i believe was in January . As far as me and religion goes , I don't really understand it . I believe in God and I know that his son Jesus died for our sins . I don't like hypocritical churches though . The ones that ask for all of your money to put the preacher in a new house , or car , or trips to Las Vegas lol or wherever or whatever else the preacher needs money for .Sorry but that does NOT work for me. As far as I thought ,I thought the money for the church was exactly that . MONEY FOR THE CHURCH . I thought the money for the church was for the up keeping of the church . I guess I was wrong .I don't like churches that judge you by what you wear .If your wearing jeans it shouldn't matter . Its not proper ,but some people don't have money to go out and buy the clothes but like i said before it shouldn't matter . If they came to praise him then why judge ? I don't like when people claim they have "the holy ghost' but as soon as the music stop they don't have it anymore. WHATTTTT THE HECK ? If the Lord is speaking to you and he is touching your soul then let him touch it , don't let it stop as soon as the song is done . I know some people would say hmmmmm he's speaking to me through the song , sorry but I'm not buying it. ..:......................................................................................................... .Anywho back to me and my church experience today . I liked it . Bebito was doin his thing on the drums . I personally don't think he could do things like he wanted to ..(Cant wait to go to a performance .. whenever that is )..I was nervous as heck . I should have paid attention to the pastor more but i did get something out of it . I wrote down a few quotes that kinda stood out the most .. "He takes some things out of you to put some things in you ".I like that because i was just wondering why people have left me , and why have things or people that I thought were important to me just left , then i realized better people came in my life so that all tied together. "Life isn't about the destination its about the journey to reach it "...... I like this one because its hot .According to a friend ,Rev Run said it too but regardless of where it came from I liked it."Some of you are you're own worst enemies ".I don't have a reason why i like it . I just do .I haven't been to church in awhilllle and i didn't know that they SHOUTED OUT the visitors. We filled out a card and im thinking they were gonna email or mail us info. about upcoming events or other info about the church , so I'm calm and relaxed. Next thing you know , when it was time for Visitors Greetings they said "We're gonna ask the visitors to stand when their name is called ," I looked around like WTF???!!! They said my mothers name she was like ooohhh no i am not standing up and I made her stand lol. I made her stand and I was scared as hell too , I don't think that half a stand counts as a stand but whatever .. Anywhoo I want Ivtastic to call ,,, until next time ... :)

Things I hate

ureHate is a strong word but Dislike didn't seem strong enough so hey .. I hate when people owe me money . whether is 1200.00 , 200.00 ,20.00 , 2.00, 20 cents or 2 cents . I don't care I hate it . Like , if you know u borrowed it , just offer it back , That doesn't mean I'm going to take it but just like u needed it b4 , I may need it now , Don't be inconsiderate especially if I did you the favor of LENDING it to you in the first place. I hate when people don't call back .I don't know why and I know I'm in love with my phone more than the average ,but I hattttteeee when I call someone and they call me back whenever they please. Send a text , email , air signal, flare, or something that will let me know you cant call me back or something . Unless its death i would really rather someone somehow let me know you cant call back instead of having me wait . HMMM waiting .. Speaking of waiting , I hate waiting on people for a lonnggg period of time . Let me know plans are cancelled , or post poned , or pushed back PLEASE..I hate the feeling of not knowing . If I'm worried about someone or if idk what going on that kills me . Like if me and a person aren't talking and i really don't know why it KILLS me , or if i know something and its on the top of my brain and i still DON'T know it sucks lol . I hate ignorance. I hate open straws or bottle tops lol ... weird but i really do hate them lol..... PLEASEEE don't think I'm negative or anything , things i hate just came to mind so i decided to write about it ..... until next time which will be in about 10 minutes lol .. ttys :)